Urgh not so much of a great day… I am feeling so run down and a bit snotty and chesty but only a little. Just not feeling it all today, not even now lol.
I slept really well last night and woke up at 9 am, had breakfast and watched tv and fell back to sleep until midday.
Still didn’t feel good, so had some lunch and just sat on the sofa because I didn’t really know what to do with myself and time passed really quickly.
Eventually got up and had a shower, got dressed and sat across the road in the sun with the pups for a bit, in hopes that the sun would give me a bit of an energy boost…but no such luck. I felt utterly exhausted! So I slept again for an hour and a half, just because I had too, I was far too tired to do anything else. I really hate days like this 😦 it’s so frustrating.
Decided not to go to group because I’m still tired and I just didn’t feel like being around anyone yet.
Urgh even writing this is just taking it out of me meh. My brain has just stopped working and I don’t even know what I’m writing.
I had a bit of money left so I had pizza hut for dinner lol, screw it I’m ill and I just couldn’t be bothered.
I sorted out my money for the my groups and counselling this week, so that’s all put aside. Sorted out what I am doing and when for the next fortnight and what bills etc are coming out and when, feels good to be organised and at least look like I know what I’m doing lol.
I ended up taking the pups out for an hour, I took a short cut down to the sea. It was really nice to get out with the pups for a bit, I love so much being by the sea. Feel so at peace by the sea.
Just been relaxing this evening and I still feel like fucking shit! I just want to hide away from everyone and everything forever.. I think I’m just feeling like this because I’m tired and a bit poorly….Well hopefully.
Tomorrow is busy-ish. Gotta go out to pay rent and electric, gotta take the pups to the vets in the afternoon, might order food shopping and going to see if I can get dog and cat food delivered again from the pet shop. Also got someone coming to pick up some clothes that are going to help the homeless, which is good least they are going somewhere useful. I’m not sure I will do all of that tomorrow, it depends how I feel.
Seen a new pair of jeans I like on Amazon, so going to treat myself to them 🙂 non of my jeans fit me since losing all that weight. I definitely deserve a nice new pair of jeans 🙂 and they are so cool. I can’t seem to find any loose fit jeans in the shops, which totally sucks!
Anyway’s whatever, this boy needs to get some sleep… again!
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