Month: December 2017

Transition update – Week 18 on T

Week 18 on testosterone landed on Boxing Day, I just about had time to do a short video but that was it. I had a great Christmas day at my brothers and yesterday I had a good day with my friends. I can’t believe… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 18 on T”

Transition update – Week 17 on T

I feel like there’s so much write, but where to even start. Most of it isn’t trans related but it all has a knock on effect on everything else. My brain is just overflowing, its so overwhelming and I don’t want to deal with… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 17 on T”

Trying to survived in a messed up system

Where to even start?! I suppose I’ll start with the GP appointment I had on Friday. I had written some notes down the night before so I could just hand it over to my new GP. It was hard to write as it made… Continue Reading “Trying to survived in a messed up system”

Fractured self

I’m not quite sure where to start, so I suppose I’ll start with the two posts that I posted on Instagram, although I don’t 100% remember posting them. It all seems like a very vague memory, or a story that someone once told me.… Continue Reading “Fractured self”

Transition update – Week 16 on T

I can’t believe today I did my 5th testosterone shot, time just flies by. Although it didn’t go quite to plan, I slit my thumb open on the vial. You have a pressure point that you push to open the little glass vial and… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 16 on T”

Anxiety sucks

I can’t relax. So I thought maybe writing would help. I’ve been so anxious for the last maybe week or more, but today has been really bad. I’ve barely done anything, I just can’t focus enough to do anything. A billion thoughts all at… Continue Reading “Anxiety sucks”

Emotional Robot

I don’t know if I’ll post this but I needed to write to get it all out of my head before I go insane. I feel so disconnected from everything, I feel like a robot, nothing feels real. I’m just doing things because I… Continue Reading “Emotional Robot”

Transition update – Week 15 on T

I don’t have much to write this week about my transition, mainly because of my low mood, but partly because there have been no changes this week…well apart from the huge spot on my forehead. Next week I do my 5th testosterone injection which… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 15 on T”


When people ask me how I am, my default answer is “I’m alright” and its mainly because I don’t want to keep talking about how I feel because its just the same. It gets soul destroying having to say how I really feel. Truth… Continue Reading “*Insert*witty*title*here*”