Am I the only one who when I am with people will put my phone in my pocket and leave it there, checking it very occasionally.
I had two friends down to stay with me and I felt so fucking awkward, lonely and left out.
They both spent 99% of the time on their phones, they were chatting with other people, playing stupid fucking games and just sitting there in silence… like wtf?! One of my friends even sent me a couple of stupid memes… like wtf I’m in the same fucking room as me! Show me! Don’t fucking text it!
I felt so fucking awkward, I’m not feeling my best as it is and I just didn’t have the energy to keep starting conversations… cuz they just died off anyway, I felt like I was interrupting and I was just in the way in my own fucking house!
We went out yesterday and on the way back not one of them said a word to me! They were just sat there on their phones talking to each other!
So today I didn’t even try, I just wanted them to go, I was so fucking done!
Yes they had bought me dinner but I don’t want or need things bought for me, I got my own fucking money. All I wanted was some quality time with friends… not too much to ask for? Right? But clearly it was.
I’m so fucking angry and upset! I deleted every single person off my FB! I’m fucking done with people! They wanna be friends fucking prove it!
I’m sick to death of trying to keep friendships going, I’m done! I don’t fucking care anymore! People are so selfish and self involved.
Yes we all got issues but fuck! Sitting on your phone whilst in the company of others is so fucking rude!
I’m so lonely, but I’d rather be on my own then be with people who make me feel alone.
One of them clearly didn’t like what I had to say about how they made me feel so I got blocked on social media’s! Fucking pathetic! Truth hurts!
I’m so tired of crying all the time, I’m just tired… I’m trying so hard to keep going and keeping my shit together but it’s exhausting. I’m tired of pretending to be ok, I have to be ok… no one else is here to help.
Category: anger, depression, fed up, friends, my lifeTags: alone, angry, awkward, communication, depressed, fed up, friends, left out, lonely, people, phones, pissed off, rude, sad, social isolation, social media