Today’s been weird, this morning I was organised, got shit done, felt good. By sort of 13:30pm I was just done for the day .
I wanted to sleep because I was tired but I couldn’t settle. So just spent most of the afternoon zoned out, completely disconnected. I just feel like a zombie, it’s hard to get out of that feeling too.
I just feel nothing but everything at once. It’s so overwhelming.
Still after all these years I still feel so guilty about not being productive enough, or well just not being enough full stop.
It doesn’t help that it’s a full moon this weekend and I’m due my T shot Monday, they are all added factors.
Having a hard time focusing, concentrating and just getting thoughts in order. Everything feels disorganised. I feel out of place.
Not sure if it’s depression or not… I dunno. I don’t really know how to fix it either I’m not sure what’s going to help.