I wrote this last night, despite a nice day the darkness still takes a hold of me and I can’t shake it off
You ever just feel like you’re a total inconvenience to everyone?!
But it’s almost like they only stick around out of duty and pity they feel for you.
You ever feel so lost and alone, fractured and broken that nothing seems to make a difference anymore.
I feel like I’m being left behind, like I’m on the outside of life, peering in to catch a glimpse of things that could have been.
I feel like I’ve wasted so much time doing nothing and I still have no idea what to do.
Like why am I even here? I have no purpose, no point.. directionless child who is just floating around in the darkness all alone.
Faking being ok for my whole life, I can’t keep it up, it’s a heavy weight. But I feel I can’t be depressed all the time because well people don’t like that.
I’m just an old toy left upon the shelf, battered and bruised, broken and dusty. Left unloved, forgotten and alone.
I want to step into the light out of this darkness, I’m tired of going it alone