Month: October 2019

A day in the life of a trans guy – 10 weeks post op

This Tuesday was my 10 weeks post op, it still seems surreal but it feels so right. Its so hard to explain how it feels to finally have had top surgery, after having spent so many years feeling so uncomfortable with my body, I…

How do I move forward?

I just wrote a whole fucking post that didn’t save! because my internet went down! I am so pissed! I poured my soul out and now its fucking gone! Hopefully I can rewrite it, as I need to get this shit out. Even stupid…

Keep writing

There’s so much sadness inside that needs to come out. In fact I think if kept writing everyday for the rest of my life it still wouldn’t cover everything I hold deep inside. I don’t even know enough words to express all the things…

Vortex of negative thoughts

I really want to decorate and replace most of my furniture. I don’t feel capable enough to do it myself. Although I know I’d love to do it myself, I love creating things. I really want to create a cozy, safe spot space. I…

A day in life of a trans guy – growing feet

We have had such crappy weather, Monday was awful, it rained all day long and that was the day I found out my trainers are no longer waterproof lol! My right foot was soaked, I’ve only had my trainers for like 4 months. Which…

The darkness

I wrote this 12/10/19 in the morning, I woke up feeling sad. Urgh I feel as shitty as this shitty weather. It’s been so grey and horrible, constantly raining! I’m so over it. It hurts my legs and does nothing for my mood. I…

Left behind

I always feel like I’m being left behind, left out, like I’m still a little kid just still struggling to figure out what’s happening. I feel like I’m missing out and being missed out of things. I feel like no one really knows me…