Month: October 2019

A day in the life of a trans guy – 10 weeks post op

This Tuesday was my 10 weeks post op, it still seems surreal but it feels so right. Its so hard to explain how it feels to finally have had top surgery, after having spent so many years feeling so uncomfortable with my body, I… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a trans guy – 10 weeks post op”

How do I move forward?

I just wrote a whole fucking post that didn’t save! because my internet went down! I am so pissed! I poured my soul out and now its fucking gone! Hopefully I can rewrite it, as I need to get this shit out. Even stupid… Continue Reading “How do I move forward?”

Keep writing

There’s so much sadness inside that needs to come out. In fact I think if kept writing everyday for the rest of my life it still wouldn’t cover everything I hold deep inside. I don’t even know enough words to express all the things… Continue Reading “Keep writing”

Vortex of negative thoughts

I really want to decorate and replace most of my furniture. I don’t feel capable enough to do it myself. Although I know I’d love to do it myself, I love creating things. I really want to create a cozy, safe spot space. I… Continue Reading “Vortex of negative thoughts”

A day in life of a trans guy – growing feet

We have had such crappy weather, Monday was awful, it rained all day long and that was the day I found out my trainers are no longer waterproof lol! My right foot was soaked, I’ve only had my trainers for like 4 months. Which… Continue Reading “A day in life of a trans guy – growing feet”

The darkness

I wrote this 12/10/19 in the morning, I woke up feeling sad. Urgh I feel as shitty as this shitty weather. It’s been so grey and horrible, constantly raining! I’m so over it. It hurts my legs and does nothing for my mood. I… Continue Reading “The darkness”

Left behind

I always feel like I’m being left behind, left out, like I’m still a little kid just still struggling to figure out what’s happening. I feel like I’m missing out and being missed out of things. I feel like no one really knows me… Continue Reading “Left behind”

A day in the life of a Trans guy – 7 weeks post op Top Surgery

These past 7 weeks have gone so quickly, my head and emotions still haven’t quite caught up with everything yet, I’m just trying to take it easy and be kind to myself. The one thing no one tells you about post top surgery is… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a Trans guy – 7 weeks post op Top Surgery”

A day in the life of a trans guy – 6 Weeks post op Top surgery

Today marks 6 weeks since I had top surgery and its still feels a bit surreal and kinda dream like, but its the dream I’ve been dreaming for so long and it feels amazing. I am really fussy with clothes and one of my… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a trans guy – 6 Weeks post op Top surgery”