Category: agitated

A day in the life of a Trans guy

So just a quick update really as I don’t have a whole lot to say regarding my transition. As at the moment it feels like it’s on pause. 20/3/2020 marked 7 months post op top surgery! Which is cool but as I’ve spoken about… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a Trans guy”

A quick catch up

Just looking at when I last wrote and it was nearly 3 weeks ago, which feels like forever. I’ve struggled to sit down and concentrate mainly because I’ve been so exhausted but I’ve also been really struggling with disassociation, sometimes when I sit down… Continue Reading “A quick catch up”

Breaking very old patterns

As I mentioned in my last post, I had written 2 long posts early hours of this morning, but I knew I would need to proof read the spelling and if they made sense or not before posting as they were both written pretty… Continue Reading “Breaking very old patterns”

Inner monologue

I wrote this early hours of this morning and thought I’d share the sort of stuff that runs through my brain. Inner monologue Body needs to rest but my brain needs that’s physical stimulation which is maybe where/when/why I get so agitated and frustrated… Continue Reading “Inner monologue”

Counselling – Asking for help isn’t shameful

I went back to counselling sessions about 3/4 months ago now and I’ve found it to be really beneficial and has really helped me to process things I’ve been dealing with and has helped me unpick some real deep routed/ingrained stuff that I hadn’t… Continue Reading “Counselling – Asking for help isn’t shameful”

Pushing through the dark

I woke up today just not wanting to participate in life at all, just wanted to hide. But I couldn’t relax, I couldn’t settle on doing any one thing and Scrappy kept looking at me with his big puppy dog eyes. With much effort… Continue Reading “Pushing through the dark”

Grumpy boy

The last couple of weeks have been a bit of a struggle, I’ve been feeling so agitated, grumpy, achy and exhausted. A lot of it has to do with having stopped taking trazadone, which is slowly working its way out of my system. I’ve… Continue Reading “Grumpy boy”

Disassociation and other stuff

I’m not sure this post will make much sense, or even have a point lol. But I just need to write things out and hopefully help sort through the mass of thoughts that race through my brain every second of every day. I’m going… Continue Reading “Disassociation and other stuff”

How do I move forward?

I just wrote a whole fucking post that didn’t save! because my internet went down! I am so pissed! I poured my soul out and now its fucking gone! Hopefully I can rewrite it, as I need to get this shit out. Even stupid… Continue Reading “How do I move forward?”

The darkness

I wrote this 12/10/19 in the morning, I woke up feeling sad. Urgh I feel as shitty as this shitty weather. It’s been so grey and horrible, constantly raining! I’m so over it. It hurts my legs and does nothing for my mood. I… Continue Reading “The darkness”