Category: anger

today sucks

Now lockdown is easing, I’ve had two different hospital departments ring me up last week to book me in for appointments. It was quite nice to go without hospital appointments for the last few months, its been the only real upside to lockdown life.… Continue Reading “today sucks”

A day in the life of a trans guy

Where do I even start, I’ve been really struggling with this lockdown in many ways but gender dysphoria has been difficult, as I’ve got more time to sit around thinking about it and also certain experiences I’ve had hasn’t helped. I’ve been out as… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a trans guy”

Living with a Chronic illness – Hospital appointments

There are some things that came part and parcel with having a chronic illness and one of those things is having lots of hospital and doctors appointments. I have a good GP whom which I get on well with, along with the nurses who… Continue Reading “Living with a Chronic illness – Hospital appointments”

Living with a Chronic Illness – Ordering Meds

Every single time I order my Prednisolone they give me the wrong dosage ones! Despite having been on the exact same ones for most of my life! It’s infuriating because they’ve wasted money as those wrong meds will not be given to another person.… Continue Reading “Living with a Chronic Illness – Ordering Meds”

Inner monologue

I wrote this early hours of this morning and thought I’d share the sort of stuff that runs through my brain. Inner monologue Body needs to rest but my brain needs that’s physical stimulation which is maybe where/when/why I get so agitated and frustrated… Continue Reading “Inner monologue”

Counselling – Asking for help isn’t shameful

I went back to counselling sessions about 3/4 months ago now and I’ve found it to be really beneficial and has really helped me to process things I’ve been dealing with and has helped me unpick some real deep routed/ingrained stuff that I hadn’t… Continue Reading “Counselling – Asking for help isn’t shameful”

Anger issues

Someone I saw yesterday at the Trans day of remembrance service commented on the fact that I seem less angry. In previous friendships, I was told I was too angry. The one time that hurt the most was 6 months after my dad had… Continue Reading “Anger issues”

How do I move forward?

I just wrote a whole fucking post that didn’t save! because my internet went down! I am so pissed! I poured my soul out and now its fucking gone! Hopefully I can rewrite it, as I need to get this shit out. Even stupid… Continue Reading “How do I move forward?”

The darkness

I wrote this 12/10/19 in the morning, I woke up feeling sad. Urgh I feel as shitty as this shitty weather. It’s been so grey and horrible, constantly raining! I’m so over it. It hurts my legs and does nothing for my mood. I… Continue Reading “The darkness”

The light at the end of the darkness

I feel happy again and I can say that now and actually mean it. Just a few months ago I was in the darkness, struggling to get through a day. At times I felt so tired, I just didn’t want to keep going. I… Continue Reading “The light at the end of the darkness”