Category: self harm

today sucks

Now lockdown is easing, I’ve had two different hospital departments ring me up last week to book me in for appointments. It was quite nice to go without hospital appointments for the last few months, its been the only real upside to lockdown life.… Continue Reading “today sucks”

Binge eating – Getting back on track

So this subject is something I’ve been avoiding even really acknowledging as it is 100% on me and something I’ve always struggled with on and off. But its not seen as a mental health issue by mental health professionals, which is ridiculous. I’ve written… Continue Reading “Binge eating – Getting back on track”

Breaking very old patterns

As I mentioned in my last post, I had written 2 long posts early hours of this morning, but I knew I would need to proof read the spelling and if they made sense or not before posting as they were both written pretty… Continue Reading “Breaking very old patterns”

Inner monologue

I wrote this early hours of this morning and thought I’d share the sort of stuff that runs through my brain. Inner monologue Body needs to rest but my brain needs that’s physical stimulation which is maybe where/when/why I get so agitated and frustrated… Continue Reading “Inner monologue”

Being brave – asking for help

So a couple of days ago I deleted everyone off FB and at first it was out of anger and frustration and also a bit scary but it’s actually been really liberating as well, I don’t feel like there’s things that are expected of… Continue Reading “Being brave – asking for help”

Transition update – Week 17 on T

I feel like there’s so much write, but where to even start. Most of it isn’t trans related but it all has a knock on effect on everything else. My brain is just overflowing, its so overwhelming and I don’t want to deal with… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 17 on T”

Trying to survived in a messed up system

Where to even start?! I suppose I’ll start with the GP appointment I had on Friday. I had written some notes down the night before so I could just hand it over to my new GP. It was hard to write as it made… Continue Reading “Trying to survived in a messed up system”

Fractured self

I’m not quite sure where to start, so I suppose I’ll start with the two posts that I posted on Instagram, although I don’t 100% remember posting them. It all seems like a very vague memory, or a story that someone once told me.… Continue Reading “Fractured self”

Transition update – Week 16 on T

I can’t believe today I did my 5th testosterone shot, time just flies by. Although it didn’t go quite to plan, I slit my thumb open on the vial. You have a pressure point that you push to open the little glass vial and… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 16 on T”

Trying to keep it together

I decided to write today, mainly so I can get all this crap out my head and stop it from just going around in circles. I finally managed to get onto my doctors notes… I can’t use any of it though! Its so inaccurate… Continue Reading “Trying to keep it together”