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Saturday Afternoon Walk

The sunshine has finally arrived! and Saturday afternoon it was beautiful. The sun was shining and it was a bit chilly but it was a perfect day for a dog walk. I was feeling pretty indecisive and a bit agitated, I wanted to do… Continue Reading “Saturday Afternoon Walk”

A day in the life of a trans guy – The beast that is Gender dysphoria

What is gender dysphoria? Gender dysphoria is where you experience a disconnection between your biological sex and gender identity. It comes in varying degrees of distress and varies from person to person. My dysphoria was always worse around my chest, I’ve always hated my… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a trans guy – The beast that is Gender dysphoria”

Trans Day of Remembrance 2019

Yesterday was TDoR, where we take a moment and light a candle in remembrance of our fallen trans brothers and sisters over the past year. This year 331 transgender people died, some were murdered, hanged, lynched and died by suicide. We say their names… Continue Reading “Trans Day of Remembrance 2019”

Transition update

I don’t when I last posted an update about my transition stuff, but I have exciting news 😁 I am now 21 months on testosterone, my two years on T will be 22nd August. Everything with T is going well, I do my own… Continue Reading “Transition update”

Still trying – Self care

At the weekend I was feeling really agitated, indecisive and I just didn’t know what to do with myself. I think I was stressing about not doing enough…by that I’m not sure what. But I think I felt like I HAD to be doing… Continue Reading “Still trying – Self care”

Transition update – Week 38 on T

I don’t really have much to write today… I don’t really know what to write or even say. Not feeling great today, am so stressed out with my whole benefits saga.. I hate having no money, I’m having to sell stuff just to get… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 38 on T”

Transition update – Week 29 on T

This week I have some big news! But before I talk about that I’ll talk about other stuff that’s transition related. This morning I had a blood test to check my testosterone levels, this is the trough which means that my testosterone levels will… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 29 on T”

Can’t sleep, chronic pain sucks!

Its nearly 5 am and I’ve been awake since 3:30 am, I am in so much pain with my left hip and ankle. I’ve taken pain killers and its made no difference and there’s not much else I can do to make it go… Continue Reading “Can’t sleep, chronic pain sucks!”

Disassociation poem

I thought I’d share this poem, I wrote it last week after I was looking in the mirror. I think its called depersonalisation and or derealisation, under the disassociation rainbow. Just looking in the mirror Staring at the wide eyed Crazy haired person staring… Continue Reading “Disassociation poem”

2015 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog. Here’s an excerpt: A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,500 times in 2015. If it were a cable car, it would take about 58… Continue Reading “2015 in review”