Tag: agitated

Inner monologue

I wrote this early hours of this morning and thought I’d share the sort of stuff that runs through my brain. Inner monologue Body needs to rest but my brain needs that’s physical stimulation which is maybe where/when/why I get so agitated and frustrated…

Pushing through the dark

I woke up today just not wanting to participate in life at all, just wanted to hide. But I couldn’t relax, I couldn’t settle on doing any one thing and Scrappy kept looking at me with his big puppy dog eyes. With much effort…

Grumpy boy

The last couple of weeks have been a bit of a struggle, I’ve been feeling so agitated, grumpy, achy and exhausted. A lot of it has to do with having stopped taking trazadone, which is slowly working its way out of my system. I’ve…

Saturday Afternoon Walk

The sunshine has finally arrived! and Saturday afternoon it was beautiful. The sun was shining and it was a bit chilly but it was a perfect day for a dog walk. I was feeling pretty indecisive and a bit agitated, I wanted to do…

Warm weather and dysphoria

It’s good Friday today, the suns out and it’s really warm. For most people they don’t think too much about what to wear, how they feel etc. For me personally I really struggle when it’s warm. Stress about what to wear because I can’t…

Still trying – Self care

At the weekend I was feeling really agitated, indecisive and I just didn’t know what to do with myself. I think I was stressing about not doing enough…by that I’m not sure what. But I think I felt like I HAD to be doing…

Transition update – Week 41 on T

Its so strange how things can change for the better in a second. I’m feeling so much better then I have done over the past few months. My financial situation is finally sorted and I got a back payment. Its such a weight off…

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I don’t often write in between my weekly transition blogs, but I feel like I needed to write today, I got things I just need to get out and maybe it will help me make sense of everything. It’s probably gonna come out a…

Transition update – Week 28 on T

Another week has passed and I don’t remember much, its all a bit hazy and distorted. I’ve been really struggling with low mood and disassociation this week, so memories aren’t in order. Nothing feels real, everything feels dream like. Been feeling really agitated as…

Update – I’ve not written in forever

I haven’t written my blog for about 4 months now, mainly because my old laptop SUCKS! So I since have gotten myself a nice new laptop, it’s a gaming laptop and its a good spec for what I want it for and a decent…