Tag: anger

today sucks

Now lockdown is easing, I’ve had two different hospital departments ring me up last week to book me in for appointments. It was quite nice to go without hospital appointments for the last few months, its been the only real upside to lockdown life.… Continue Reading “today sucks”

How do I move forward?

I just wrote a whole fucking post that didn’t save! because my internet went down! I am so pissed! I poured my soul out and now its fucking gone! Hopefully I can rewrite it, as I need to get this shit out. Even stupid… Continue Reading “How do I move forward?”

Negative spiral – update

This negative spiral, intense depression and anxiety is not good! Slipping back into old behaviours and thought patterns that I worked so hard on to change. I don’t mean to be a dick and come across as angry and ungrateful, I’m loosing grip on… Continue Reading “Negative spiral – update”

Toxicity purge – Update

I thought I’d do an update with how things have been going since I decided to change things, cut people out of my life etc. First thing I want to say is that is has been incredibly difficult part of my journey but its… Continue Reading “Toxicity purge – Update”

Where does my inspiration come from?!

I’ve been thinking today that I haven’t had any inspiration to write for a while and it’s weird that some weeks I can write a lot but other times not at all. I mean yeah there’s something I could have written about but it… Continue Reading “Where does my inspiration come from?!”

Transition update – Week 31 on T

Another week on testosterone and its been a crazy week, its been up, down and all over the place. Its been hard to keep a track of how I feel, what’s going on. It feels like a whirlwind of emotions, highs and lows and… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 31 on T”

This f*cking suck!

I don’t even know where to start right now, once again my heads in a fucking spin! I feel so full of anger and frustration. I really fucking hate my life! Now I’m not one to say that very often, I try and feel… Continue Reading “This f*cking suck!”

Transition update – Week 26 on T

Today I had my testosterone shot, I was meant to have it done at the doctors surgery but I got there and my appointment had been cancelled!! I was so angry as I didn’t sleep well last night and I was rushing around to… Continue Reading “Transition update – Week 26 on T”

Trying to keep it together

I decided to write today, mainly so I can get all this crap out my head and stop it from just going around in circles. I finally managed to get onto my doctors notes… I can’t use any of it though! Its so inaccurate… Continue Reading “Trying to keep it together”

I am still a work in process – update on life.

WOW so it has been a long old few weeks since I last posted and a lot has happened. First of all I would like to say that I cannot believe I have kept my shit together, despite all the trials and tribulations I… Continue Reading “I am still a work in process – update on life.”