Tag: anxious

today sucks

Now lockdown is easing, I’ve had two different hospital departments ring me up last week to book me in for appointments. It was quite nice to go without hospital appointments for the last few months, its been the only real upside to lockdown life….

trauma

This lockdown has been kinda good for one thing its allowed old wounds and pains to surface and its made me face the reality of the route cause of this pain that’s been there forever. I’ve had counselling and different therapies since I was…

Anxiety sucks

I can’t relax. So I thought maybe writing would help. I’ve been so anxious for the last maybe week or more, but today has been really bad. I’ve barely done anything, I just can’t focus enough to do anything. A billion thoughts all at…

In the the darkness he follows me

I’ve not sat at the laptop at this time of night for a long time but I feel that I probably won’t sleep well tonight, I didn’t last night so pretty pointless in going to bed just yet. I still have adrenaline running through…

Am I losing it? – Update on my life

It has been another 7 days since I last posted on here, mainly because my mood has been really low and I’ve not had the motivation to do anything and a bit because my situation hasn’t really changed much and I’m so fed up….

Living my life to accommodate an illness I hate

I don’t know even where to start 1 because I am SO tired and 2 because I have scrappy doodles staring at me, which is kinda off putting. He wants to play but I’ve already played fetch since I got home earlier, he’s so…

I will never stop fighting – Benefits suck!

Ah Sunday evening…which means I have another week ahead of me to deal with! Urgh  and I have a few battles to deal with this week. I had some shit news through the post and WOW it’s utterly disgusting and I got so mad! So…

ARRRGH! There are no words

I am not quite sure where to start today… there are SO many things on my lil brain today. Well the same as every day I suppose lol! I started the day by managing to pull a chunk of skin out of my finger…

G.I.C workshop @ Charing Cross hospital

I am so so so tired, I probably should get to bed right now. But I need to get stuff out my head before I can sleep and rest properly. Monday night it took me nearly an hour to get to sleep because I…

Separation anxiety

Urgh I am really struggling to concentrate right now, but I’m going to keep going. I didn’t sleep too well last night, kept tossing and turning. But I felt ok not too tired. This morning I was pretty productive, I wrote my lists, sorted…