Tag: cutting

today sucks

Now lockdown is easing, I’ve had two different hospital departments ring me up last week to book me in for appointments. It was quite nice to go without hospital appointments for the last few months, its been the only real upside to lockdown life….

Trying to survived in a messed up system

Where to even start?! I suppose I’ll start with the GP appointment I had on Friday. I had written some notes down the night before so I could just hand it over to my new GP. It was hard to write as it made…

Trying to keep it together

I decided to write today, mainly so I can get all this crap out my head and stop it from just going around in circles. I finally managed to get onto my doctors notes… I can’t use any of it though! Its so inaccurate…

Update – I’ve not written in forever

I haven’t written my blog for about 4 months now, mainly because my old laptop SUCKS! So I since have gotten myself a nice new laptop, it’s a gaming laptop and its a good spec for what I want it for and a decent…

Food Dairy – Week 4

I am pretty proud that I am 4 weeks in and I am still trying new foods, 5 years ago I wouldn’t/couldn’t have done something like this. I definitely want to continue and I want to try new meals and new places to eat…

In the the darkness he follows me

I’ve not sat at the laptop at this time of night for a long time but I feel that I probably won’t sleep well tonight, I didn’t last night so pretty pointless in going to bed just yet. I still have adrenaline running through…

I feel into the darkness

A month ago since I last posted and I was attempting to write more regularly but life and my poor mental health has kinda got in the way and to be honest I don’t remember a lot of the past month. I know I’ve…

What a week and it’s only Wednesday!

Its only Wednesday and it has already been one hell of a week! I’m absolutely exhausted, in so much pain and so stressed out, literally don’t know how I am continuing to move forward and deal with all of this shit. So Monday Scrappy…

Anger Issues and Great Friends

Sunday again..it seems to come around quicker every week and wow what a week it’s been. How would I describe this week? Well this week has been filled with high emotion, mainly anger and frustration, with a bit of crying and some happy days….

Survival mode

Once again I’ve just been staring blankly at the computer screen because I have no idea where to start and I’m not even sure how I feel or what’s really going on. All I know is that I just have to get through it….