Tag: exhausted

LIFE IN LOCKDOWN..CONT

This feels like a never ending saga… Although things are starting to slowly get back to normal-ish. More places are starting to open and you’re allowed to travel a bit more and the level has been lowered to 3.. which I’m unsure of the…

trauma

This lockdown has been kinda good for one thing its allowed old wounds and pains to surface and its made me face the reality of the route cause of this pain that’s been there forever. I’ve had counselling and different therapies since I was…

Counselling sessions

After 14 sessions, 14 hours I have finished my counselling sessions, with the lovely Scania Price. I’m glad I was encouraged to find a private counsellor, I’m so pleased I found Scania as I got a lot out of my 14 sessions. It was…

A quick catch up

Just looking at when I last wrote and it was nearly 3 weeks ago, which feels like forever. I’ve struggled to sit down and concentrate mainly because I’ve been so exhausted but I’ve also been really struggling with disassociation, sometimes when I sit down…

Grumpy boy

The last couple of weeks have been a bit of a struggle, I’ve been feeling so agitated, grumpy, achy and exhausted. A lot of it has to do with having stopped taking trazadone, which is slowly working its way out of my system. I’ve…

Self Care

I’ve not written much about self care recently, as after surgery self care was kinda a given. I had to listen to my body and look after myself. Recently I haven’t been feeling great, I’ve been feeling absolutely exhausted and generally just been feeling…

The darkness surrounds me

I wrote this last night, despite a nice day the darkness still takes a hold of me and I can’t shake it off You ever just feel like you’re a total inconvenience to everyone?! But it’s almost like they only stick around out of…

Negative spiral – update

This negative spiral, intense depression and anxiety is not good! Slipping back into old behaviours and thought patterns that I worked so hard on to change. I don’t mean to be a dick and come across as angry and ungrateful, I’m loosing grip on…

Laid bare

I’ve been mia for a while, I’ve not been posting regularly like I was, for a number of reasons, which I’ll explain as I write this. I’m feeling pretty vulnerable at the moment, so this is going to be hard and uncomfortable. But it’s…

Disconnected

Today’s been weird, this morning I was organised, got shit done, felt good. By sort of 13:30pm I was just done for the day . I wanted to sleep because I was tired but I couldn’t settle. So just spent most of the afternoon…