Tag: vulnerable

LIFE IN LOCKDOWN..CONT

This feels like a never ending saga… Although things are starting to slowly get back to normal-ish. More places are starting to open and you’re allowed to travel a bit more and the level has been lowered to 3.. which I’m unsure of the… Continue Reading “LIFE IN LOCKDOWN..CONT”

Self care during self QUARANTINE

I suffer with mental health issues, mainly depression and anxiety. But also struggle with disassociation and gender dysphoria. As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I started myself back on trazadone to get through this tough, uncertain times. I’ve been back on it for around… Continue Reading “Self care during self QUARANTINE”

My Journey from the L to T in LGBT

I saw today on my memories thing that 11 years ago today, I told my mum I was a lesbian. Which now seems hilarious as I feel like such a late bloomer in everything. As a at the time I would have been 23… Continue Reading “My Journey from the L to T in LGBT”

The light at the end of the darkness

I feel happy again and I can say that now and actually mean it. Just a few months ago I was in the darkness, struggling to get through a day. At times I felt so tired, I just didn’t want to keep going. I… Continue Reading “The light at the end of the darkness”

Laid bare

I’ve been mia for a while, I’ve not been posting regularly like I was, for a number of reasons, which I’ll explain as I write this. I’m feeling pretty vulnerable at the moment, so this is going to be hard and uncomfortable. But it’s… Continue Reading “Laid bare”

Lost boy

When I’m feeling low and I make silly mistakes it’s hard not to tear myself down. For example, I’m currently on the coach to London and I was feeling ok. But then I forgot to pick up my appointment letter and deed poll. So… Continue Reading “Lost boy”

A day in the life of a trans guy – I just want to be a real boy 😔

I feel like I’m stuck in limbo, everything feels suspended in space. Just hanging around in this skin that doesn’t feel like my own. This body doesn’t feel like it’s mine, it’s just doesn’t fit. I know I’m on the journey to change all… Continue Reading “A day in the life of a trans guy – I just want to be a real boy 😔”

Trying to survived in a messed up system

Where to even start?! I suppose I’ll start with the GP appointment I had on Friday. I had written some notes down the night before so I could just hand it over to my new GP. It was hard to write as it made… Continue Reading “Trying to survived in a messed up system”

Emotional Robot

I don’t know if I’ll post this but I needed to write to get it all out of my head before I go insane. I feel so disconnected from everything, I feel like a robot, nothing feels real. I’m just doing things because I… Continue Reading “Emotional Robot”

Constant feeling of dread

I wrote this last night, in notes on my phone, just before I feel asleep, its a snapshot of how I was feeling at the time. I actually slept really well and slept for about 11 hours, so maybe writing before I slept helped… Continue Reading “Constant feeling of dread”